For weeks I have been taking care of my grandmother, it has taken all of my time, I don't regret it but I miss painting something awful. It is going to be long road with taking care of her, her body is healthy, it's her mind that has gone to the funny farm. I want to paint and my head is filled with ideas. Bear with me, I will be back.
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I just realized! Nothing belongs to me! My house is not mine, the fridge is not mine, the flowers and the sky are not mine, even the shoes I wear are not mine. Although I could say, my body, my mind and even that is not mine.
The body eats and breathes things it doesn't control and all that's left is the mind and that you can lose at any time. My mind is not even mine. My worldly possessions will be passed on or discarded completely, my body will be buried, whatever my mind creates right now, at least that will be left behind. So whats left to be mine? Decision or free will if you don't mind, is all that I posses and that, is mine! This is what happens when I clean my fridge. Ooooo yes! I remember what's mine - all the work that needs to be done. ;) A lonely canvas is staring back at me for over 2 weeks now. It's way after the Studio Tour and I am still feeling the effects, don't get me wrong it was a great success, about 350 people came through. Before the show I was a tornado on wheels and now blah ! I don't know what it is after shows like this or any events as a matter of fact - I freeze. I do have a solid idea for my next painting but there is a prison made of numbness is holding it hostage. Ok enough with the whining, tomorrow we paint !!! or the day after that ha ha :)
For a long time I have been toying with the idea of using different colors. Rather than my comfort zone pallet, browns, reds, oranges, and the occasional glimpse of blue. The odd thing is that for 17 years these colors are rarely visible in my designs, yet when I am painting, I find myself drawn to the browns. I wanted to go crazy and use the other side of the spectrum. Perhaps this is a new beginning, but most of all this is turning out to be so much fun. With these color, even the thought process has changed for me. This one is called "The Inner Child". What ever the age, let the inner child take you for a ride. When I finished the first piece in this series, of course I posted it on FB, to see what peoples reaction will be. And than I got the most unexpected one - my husband saw it in the morning on FB, woke me up with a very urgent question, "Honey! why did you start posting other peoples art on your fan page?". I asked him to go and make us some coffee - it was hanging in the kitchen. He was surprised, and said that he liked the new colors very much. Approved !!! by my number one fan. I planed and painted this painting, specifically for this purpose, to cut it up and see what happens. I am glad to report that each individual piece has a very unique composition and it's own life. All together it worked out to be 24 pieces 5" x 11".
From the beginning I new that it was going to be cut and to my surprise it was a very hard thing to do. It took me 3 hours of looking at it, doubting my decision, sweaty palms and shacking hands. Finally I got the courage and made the first cut. The rest it history... no going back. (no alcohol was involved in this procedure) :) It was a good decision. The orange color that I started with, did not sit with me well. After looking at it for a while, the orange lost its appeal. So red it is... I am very drawn to red and no matter how much I try to stay away I just get puled back to in to it. The photo doesn't give it justice, it's a yummy red.
It's finished, drying and only couple day's left, until it meets it's fate - with a knife !!! Today I was interviewed by Melanie Jacob from Durham Region News, let me tell you... This woman brought positive energy and professionalism. She turned me into a happy chatter box and I couldn't stop. I forgot that she is a reporter and I almost spilled my deepest secrets. She asked great questions and she listened with respect. She made my day... The world should get ready, Melanie is coming !!!
It has a name, "Pieces" but it still needs some work. It is going to be cut up in to fairly small pices so detail is important. I keep procrastinating, because of the fear of the enevedable. This is how it started.
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Iwona DufajVisual artist I believe in the Magic of Creation... this is my world, where ideas are born and their journeys tell the final story. The good, the bad, the happy and sad, just plain old crazy.
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